Wth… Life?

Its been an odd couple of days here in beautiful San Diego. I have been working and schooling like any other kid, and then I just couldn’t talk anymore, the words could not flow, the mouth could not move. I sat there amazed that in all my lifetime I could I was failing myself and everything I believed in. It made me scared and psychotic.

That’s what happened, it pushed me to the point of just falling to my knees, and suddenly, I woke up. I sat there breathing hard keeping track of every movement and sound. What was happening with me, why did I just do that. And then the day starts and I drop it.

Think I’m going crazy or some things wrong? Maybe or I’m creating a story your so actively pulled in to. Who knows? What I do know is I went to palm springs pride this past weekend and it was a good vacation. But I miss it already, lol.

Checking in

Hey folks,

Don’t know who is reading or do I really care? No. But if you are then wow and thank you for keeping up with my life. So its been  5 months since my return to the american life. I’m back to working and what not. I recently took a small weekend vacation and it was good to relax. Do I miss my life in China? Yes, of course I do. I am still at that point where I want to see everything and go everywhere. Of course coming back to this life means taking all the old responsibilities. Dealing with love life drama and near death experiences (not me). But its just been one hell of a roller coaster ride, and let’s just say I had to tell someone. So what is it I have to tell you? Honestly, just every random thought running through my brain right now.  What accomplishments have I made, what progress is stuck. How am I holding up? Who do I really care to talk to, and who should I just delete from my life. Why am I so brave against life, but so afraid of it as well. What can I do to make people smile again. Every moment I wonder am I truly helping others or am I just trying to help myself. I honestly hate the lime light of punishment but I crave approval, does that mean I’m shallow? Is it wrong for me to be shallow?

Hopefully I’ll get over this Monday moody funk. Thanks for reading.

“Pampering yourself has no limits” – Brian Thai

Final Chapter

I Sit here staring at my now near empty room, while listening to Blair Late sing Love is calling (No comments from Peanut Gallery). And It just makes me sad to say goodbye finally. It is truly a time in my life that will never be forgotten and will always be remembered fondly. I hope its not my last though, I built a family here, I know I did and I know they will support my endeavors as long as I follow who I am. Its been a wrecking week, with the breaking of my Nexus Tablet and the lost of a precious Pin (Given to me by some really strong people That I actually Cherish xP), Ive just finally needed a time to stop and think about everything thats happened that I never posted. Since Aprl 7th of my last Post I have gone to Vietnam with friends, seen the growth in my students that I will truly miss and done much more than I am allowed to say =). I think though, it is definitely my time to leave and return to reality that is America. Until I find a permanent life out there, ill continue my search for the never ending adventure. Its just a truly sad but expected time, itll be good to see my Niece and my Puppies. Thank you for everything Chengdu, and I wish everyone whose continued to read on, the best of luck in your own adventures, and to make sure to record as much of it as possible. This blog will definitely be updated from time to time with new adventures. But as for now, this will surely close the Chengdu Adventure Chapter.

From One Adventurer to another: Cogito Ergo Sum
Love is Calling

Is it a Dream? Maybe Not…

Im writing because I just cant sleep. People are making me think and its at the worst time to be thinking, but its also when I do my best thinking. I’ve realized a lot in the past couple of hours reading up on what everyones doing back home and what I’m doing here. Each day, I’m in class learning, but I always felt like I’m not truly absorbing it, because my heart does not feel like it wants to learn, but to help. I see people I’ve known since middle school making big names for themselves back home and I’m proud because not only are they making big names for themselves, they are also supporting others, ways I think that came with us that were born around our age. Many of us were taught morales and values in different ways but most of us took it to heart. So I’m out here learning and teaching, and yet the only thing keeping me going is the teaching. Today, a couple of friends came over and we discussed Personalites and of course in terms of MyerBriggs format, I end up as an INFP. I want to help the world, but something in me has made me hate half of it. I don’t when or why, I just know I’m alot more pessimistic then the damn description says. Yes each person is unique and cant really be categorized, but in my eye you can be generally stereotyped on certain points. I want to help others achieve their goals and achieve my own, but what haunts me to this day to hold so much despair against the world. Im proud to say, I lived in a world where I know friends are making their names out there in the world. Its time for me to step up to the plate though. So, What to do to see to better side of the world, theres nothing but to made a change in it, to put myself out there and push like everyone else. I gotta stop hating the world, and change it if i dont like it now. it’s been awhile since i’ve written a whole post just on my thoughts since being here.

Sincerely,
Brian

Thanks to You

This is a list Im trying to compile of everyone whose helped me. IF YOUR MISSING LET ME KNOW CAUSE YOU GOT ME HERE. list isnt any order just shooting names in. Each of you helped me in realizing my goal, and made me the person i am today.
Mama Cheli
Brianna
RJ
Cathy
Haydee
Ben
Kurt
Mariela
Dwayne
Carrie
Patty
Colette
Cyndy
Baja Betty’s
Tina
Jon Jon
Julio
Javier
Ricky
Jamez ?
Kevin
Michael
BIG sis JennJenn Chowie
Mom
Dad
Diana
Amanda
Kevin H.
Jackie
Jason
Madison ? (love you niece)
M.T
J.T
D.T
E.T – (I know your a mom/ wife now, but my big sis and You and I need to hang out)
Matt
Tina
Kristina
Chrislin
Christina
Misty
Chris
Niel
Fernando
Will
BODs for SD Pride
Gabby – Support her race for a new van to help others in need!
K.lahs
Jess
Madel
Helen
Eunjae
Jimmy
(JimJae) B-)
Professor Aguilar
Anthony B.
Anthony D.
I truly have an evergrowing list, i hope to repay each of your kindness soon, Thank You all for getting me to this unexplainable event in my life

Alot in so little

Hey everyone, I decided today was a good day for a strong update. Ive been looking through pictures and videos and Im honestly missing home, China is officially taking its toll on my mental awareness. The roomies and I love the people, food, and experiences we’ve made here but we’ve all noticed it in each other. Its time for us to head back home to restart our lives and make new adventures. With the time clicking by so quickly, i decided lets give you all an update on whats been going on over here. so im gonna try to make the most pictures available, but since on my tablet the format isnt the best.
The first pictures youll see are of my students, Im glad to say they are my students and I love them each very much. I will truly miss them and my coteachers. Each day with them, makes Chengdus bleak days bearable. In less than a month I have to tell each of them They will have a new teacher, and it breaks my heart. They not only learned english, but the way to repest other people. They will be our future and i hope i taught them well.

Recently our favorite western restaurant closed down because the owners were moving back to the states for a baby. I wish you all the luck Danny and Dana on the newborn. We will definitely miss you and your food. Chengdu no longer has the Lazy pug to support our sunday morning brunches. :(

Right now though my heart aches for my puppy and the chance to take him to the park, and to say hi to my baby niece. She was born only months before i left for china and i only got to see her a few times, but as an uncle i wanna be there to spoil her. A whole year and i havent changed muched, hah.
Recently the first ever archery sports club opened up in Chengdu, you could not believe how excited i was to release an arrow again (Jon Jon can). Its called elves made me laugh, but its such a stress reliever from the rest of the world. i wish i could go more often but my budget is limited so ive only been once. I miss shoot an arrow into hay. 
I promised my roomie Josh Id visit Trinidad after we get to party it up in his home country. So look out for an update there. Had to update, IF YOU HAVENT GOTTEN A POSTCARD YET, HMU WITH A MSG ILL GET ONE OUT TO YA.
To my readers, will this be last post before i return home, No. this is my adventure across the world and i dont plan to stop my adventure. Will this prolly be my last post of China.

Aged or Not?

Hi folks, sorry for the short and inconsistent update between everything. Ive been swamped with work and school starting over here finally that its just been crazy! I have some recent photos of whats been going on in our daily lives here at the apartment. The first sunday before school started, Bryce, Josh, and myself decided to grab a good old american homemade folgers cup at our local favorite western food Restaurant, The lazy Pug. Of course as always it was amazing with our brunch =).

We Also Spent the afternoon prepping our kitchen for our future cooking, mainly Bryce to the lead with the kitchen cleaning. I commited myself to only help if Josh cleaned up after himself, lets see how well this all works out.

For those of you whove never seen a picture of our kitchen yet, this is after we cleaned it, its simple but it has everything we need. But of course we cant be college kids without a few nights of having fun, so I got some nice rooftop views of buildingd in our city.

Lastly but not least is the school schedule I got, its like highschool all over again just in Chinese xD.

I hope You all like this little update. The Reason though why its named Aged or not because officially it is 9:00am March 12, which is my birthday, but back home its barely 7pm, so whats the official judgment? Aged or not? lol

First Day

Hey Folks,

Welcome to my first full post since shutting FB down for the term. The holidays was a boring one for me, with the coldness and conserving of money. We’ve pushed through the coldness, and thanks to hibernation, Ive survived all of spring festival. Although, Im sad to say school starts now and bill paying is back. Meh I pushed and with alot of support I got my deficit down to $150, so Im really happy and Thanks to everyone out there whose help the Project feed Brian in China. My Roommates are all back from traveling and we celebrated with them buying us some pizzas from a new pizza joint that opened up recently.

It was interesting because the guy was definitely Chinese, but he had a crazy British Accent when speaking english, it was amazing. Hes got a little shop near our place so we hope to support him majorly in the future. Im hoping to find the last of the missing money soon before everything is due. With Water electricity and rent, adding on to my school bills, its an amaezment I have money to scrap for food =.=;.

But moving on, Ive been slowly traveling the streets of Chengdu checking more and more places out with window shopping when I ran into a Charlie brown Cafe, OH I sooo wanted to go in, but sadly I could not >.<

Season 2

Hey Folks, Welcome Back to Flip it My style. My names Brian and This is my blog through Chengdu. For eeveryone whose read this before, Welcome back and hope to see you donate as my adventure has only been possible thanks to hundreds of people fundraising for my future.

So Lets  get right in to it. It’s spring festival overhere in China which means the start of a new year, Had many Ups last year thanks to alot of support, Gonna keep it up. Josh had his brother come visit for two weeks, and now he leaves today, I know josh is definitely gonna miss him. (As shown below).

We’ve also had alot of fireworks shooting all around our building as masses of restaurants and local small stores all close down till the 15th. I’ve been using favebook to update people but that will be turned off this weekend so ill try to fully catch up everyone in my next post. As for now Please click the donate button as im pushing for the last amounts for school and my plane ticket home. Thanks for reading follow the pictures below

If the Narrative Fits…

The assumption is that member of Congress are self-interested, greedy, obsessed with reelection and usually corrupt. Earmark coverage fits within that narrative.  Cheese Factories on the Moon, page 104)

Pet peeve. Media coverage of politics–but especially earmarks–fails to provide sufficient context for readers more often than not.

When the facts “confirm” the narrative why bother with context?

Case in point: a story published last week by the Center for Responsive Politics.  Janie Boschma reports that former House Appropriations Committee member Steve Rothman will join a Newark law firm that lobbies on behalf of the defense industry.

Boschma employs the “revolving door” metaphor to highlight Rothman’s behavior as particularly objectionable.

Rothman served on the Defense Subcommittee of Appropriations and Boschma treads the familiar link between campaign contributions and “legislative favors.”

…the defense industry is one Rothman knows well. Among his top defense contributors during his 14-year House career were BAE Systems, $42,300; General Dynamics, $35,000; Lockheed Martin, $33,500; Boeing, $32,000; Honeywell International, $28,000; and Finmeccanica SpA, $24,000. Altogether, the defense sector donated $277,850 to Rothman during his tenure.

That is a lot of money. What the author does not tell you is this: $277,850 represents 2.4% of the campaign money that Rothman raised during his 14-year career in Congress.  A look at CRP’s own database reveals that Rothman raised $684,950 from transportation and public sector unions over the same period, almost two-and-a-half times the money he raised from defense interests.

And then a turn to the dramatic, Boschma notes the

…remarkable nexus between budgetary earmarks by Rothman and 11 other members of the subcommittee and campaign contributions…In 2007, Rothman teamed up with Rep. Rodney Frelinghuysen (R-N.J.) to earmark $1.5 million in the 2008 budget for Frontier Performance Polymers to research lightweight packaging for military gear.

Once again, $1.5 million is a lot of money. But in 2008 Rothman, according to the CRP database, was able to earmark $13.6 million, mostly in the defense area. CRP could not link most of his earmarks to campaign contributions. Of the 19 earmarks they identify they link two to campaign contributions.

That is about 1 in 10. A “remarkable nexus;” really?

What does Frontier Performance Polymers do? It seeks to lessen the weight of military ammunition to save weight for purposes of transportation and lightening the load for members of the military in the field. One may or may not think that is a legitimate use of federal funds, but readers deserve to judge based on the facts, not the implicit assumption that Rothman and Frelinghuysen routinely flush taxpayer dollars down the drain.

I do not know Steve Rothman (or Rodney Frelinghuysen). I have never met him. I have never lived in New Jersey. I am not a lobbyist. I have never worked in the defense industry. I am just a lowly college professor on the West Coast. Maybe Rothman is guilty of some wrong-doing; I do not know.

It is not my purpose to defend Mr. Rothman or this earmark.

But I have some advice (source: Cheese Factories on the Moon) to offer to Ms. Boschma and other reporters when it comes to earmarks:

  • Take the time to understand the process;
  • Try to understand individual earmarks;
  • Provide context;
  • Do not overgeneralize, and;
  • Be careful: Correlation does not equal causation.

–Sean Kelly

 

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